tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post5720088896819571747..comments2024-02-27T02:17:05.525-06:00Comments on Jamesie beats the tumor: 6 months ago and LastsUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger36125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-67275257315481624102012-01-24T18:52:47.313-06:002012-01-24T18:52:47.313-06:00I just want you to know that I think about James e...I just want you to know that I think about James every day and have since he went into the hospital. Even on days when I don't check your blog, somehow he creeps into my thoughts and I remember that sweet baby with the awesome hair and tiny coos in Sunday school. <br />Love<br />Abbey Grayabbeyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07168471771620475949noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-42754726325847242402012-01-23T21:57:33.814-06:002012-01-23T21:57:33.814-06:00I just stumbled across your blog today. And wow. ...I just stumbled across your blog today. And wow. 6mths ago indeed your life changed. I'm trying not to cry as I write this to you, my 13mth old boy, Joe is sitting of my foot, trying to dig my toe out from my shoe and still I won't cry.<br />Instead, I'll tell you what wonderful photos of your James that you have. Beautiful shots, I'm sure one day you'll be able to laugh aloud when you relive a memory that would have made him giggle. In the meantime, hang on. Live on those memories that you have and remember that beautiful day that he came into your life, that day will outshine any other.<br />Hugs, Rie.Riehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00787875556216073643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-38844529398520178662012-01-20T13:33:06.850-06:002012-01-20T13:33:06.850-06:00I try to not to cry on, but I cant. My tears fall ...I try to not to cry on, but I cant. My tears fall down.. I know that we can be almost crazy if missing the one we love. but we can be stronger with that,,vteynahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02569878761896103336noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-85488733597054939662012-01-20T13:30:09.946-06:002012-01-20T13:30:09.946-06:00Kara,
A mother's love never fades away. Jame...Kara,<br /><br />A mother's love never fades away. James certainly felt your love without a doubt. Of this I can be sure. Whether or not your son felt pain that you might have been able to decrease pales in comparison to the love that he felt from you. The only thing as strong as a mother's love is her instinct. I'm sure as you look back and question whether or not you did all the right things, it is difficult to stop thinking about what might have been. Please know that while you were an active part in Jamesie's life, you were acting with love and instinct. You were there. You did what a mother with that much love in her heart would do. That is what matters. <br /><br />As you continue on your journey in life and in dealing with your loss, please know how worthy you are of finding happiness again. Finding joy will not replace the love of your son. The joy will be that much more meaningful. Someday when you find the courage to allow yourself to heal, you'll feel a sense of overwhelming love - a love that only a mother knows.<br /><br />SueCDShttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07974344657129503685noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-39589889966151343222012-01-20T12:02:40.220-06:002012-01-20T12:02:40.220-06:00Have you read this?
Do not stand at my grave and ...Have you read this?<br /><br />Do not stand at my grave and weep,<br />I am not there; I do not sleep.<br />I am a thousand winds that blow,<br />I am the diamond glints on snow,<br />I am the sun on ripened grain,<br />I am the gentle autumn rain.<br />When you awaken in the morning’s hush<br />I am the swift uplifting rush<br />Of quiet birds in circling flight.<br />I am the soft star-shine at night.<br />Do not stand at my grave and cry,<br />I am not there; I did not die.<br /><br />Feel him all around you. Faith, blessings, and prayers.Udita Banerjeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00319922744252378061noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-83564716852440741022012-01-20T01:07:22.476-06:002012-01-20T01:07:22.476-06:00Kara,
I am a hospice nurse, I followed your blog f...Kara,<br />I am a hospice nurse, I followed your blog form the beginning and I really want to share with you what I tell families(regardless of the age of my patient) is that we(the medical staff) will never know their loved one the way they do, and they(the family) will know when their loved one is in pain. I truly truly believe, especially in regards to parents that your Mommy instinct would have told you James was in pain, and needed something more if that had been the case. Even though he was vomiting he was still getting a lot of the medication. That's the beauty of liquids. Its absorbed so quickly. I feel ill that you are carrying around this sort of guilt. Still praying for you and Matthew. I keep a picture of a giraffe at my desk and think of James often.JChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18406715309051898420noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-33412668991487822962012-01-19T21:35:12.753-06:002012-01-19T21:35:12.753-06:00I have lost a loved one. It was painful, indeed. B...I have lost a loved one. It was painful, indeed. But this kept me going. "If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn. People die. But real love is forever." You're baby is never gone. He'll forever live in your heart.queenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17744266815555673502noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-75409672614412019762012-01-19T08:49:17.812-06:002012-01-19T08:49:17.812-06:00There's nothing that I, someone you don't ...There's nothing that I, someone you don't know from Adam, can say right now that will be just right, but if it helps even a little, I think you're a mother and will always be a mother in your heart. No one can take that away from you even when you're not 'mothering' in the moment. It will always be a part of who you are, regardless of what happens in the future.Mama Up!https://www.blogger.com/profile/16062563084376679862noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-11728385546472358312012-01-18T23:29:35.485-06:002012-01-18T23:29:35.485-06:00I am so glad you had your little guy. He is beauti...I am so glad you had your little guy. He is beautiful, and you made him happy. I can see that in his eyes. I am in a very unique position, I have a daughter who is a cancer survivor, In 1986, they found a large mass in her abdomen. It had been 21 years since another child had been disgnosed. Her Kidney Cancer, Wilm's Tumor, was in her uterus in stead of the kidneys. She had a Hysterectomy at 9 months old, followed by almost 2 years. I cared for my Mother through her battle with Primary Peritoneal Carcinoma, she passed 7/04/06. My was 15 and been involved in a gasoline explosion and severely burned. Our family has had so much to carry..And Now I have Langerhan's Cell Histiocytosis...an extremely rare for of "Childhood Cancer-Like Condition"<br />I can honestly say to you and your family, and of course your close friends...Talk about him everyday. I have never met you or James, but he loved his Mommy and Daddy, and he was smiling so handsome in those pictures...Thank you for sharing such a gift with us. I am at:Navigating through the world, with HistioSuehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05222628675248625265noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-3167865503937426962012-01-18T21:00:25.239-06:002012-01-18T21:00:25.239-06:00I can only imagine the kind of life-sorting/arrang...I can only imagine the kind of life-sorting/arranging/analyzing you're having to do! I pray you feel James's smile -- but more importantly God's smile -- on you as you courageously take on this new life. I pray many blessings on you in these new endeavors. Not blessings that replace your son (impossible!) but blessings nonetheless.keep growinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13108828624180772190noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-60530439732634922562012-01-18T18:53:02.469-06:002012-01-18T18:53:02.469-06:00Such a doll - you can see his beautiful personalit...Such a doll - you can see his beautiful personality shining through - I bet he was a live wire!!! Thinking about you and Matthew and praying for you always.Susan in Texashttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10130736349998276787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-12441375768481697312012-01-18T10:06:11.561-06:002012-01-18T10:06:11.561-06:00Kara - he is such a beautiful boy; my heart is hea...Kara - he is such a beautiful boy; my heart is heavy for you. We continue pray for you and Matthew and James every evening. I can only imagine that it is little solace that you have so many people who keep you in their thoughts/prayers, but know that people do care - about you, your husband and your beautiful son. I have never met you but your son and story have made quite an impact - in many lives. Remember, though, that you will always be James' mommy. God saw fit to choose you to be his mommy and that will never change. Much love from Ohio.Bethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05736128043033152083noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-60751724891777875032012-01-18T07:05:56.430-06:002012-01-18T07:05:56.430-06:00The pictures of your baby are beautiful. I'm ...The pictures of your baby are beautiful. I'm so sorry you lost such a precious gift.Shandra's Ramblingshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01637992689813035763noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-9708987933969055192012-01-17T21:57:55.264-06:002012-01-17T21:57:55.264-06:00Kara and Matthew, you are in my prayers daily. I c...Kara and Matthew, you are in my prayers daily. I can't imagine what you're going through, but I pray for peace.Kimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09660268425510076093noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-67720545780346283922012-01-17T21:30:55.375-06:002012-01-17T21:30:55.375-06:00The pain is so raw, my heart breaks so often when ...The pain is so raw, my heart breaks so often when I think of you which is all the time. Just so unfair but the pictures you post make me smile and for that I thank you. Thank you for making me smile, you help make me happier and that does count for something. Still praying like always! Hugs!Toni :O)https://www.blogger.com/profile/01652753669110100387noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-88606294231575978902012-01-17T18:30:04.856-06:002012-01-17T18:30:04.856-06:00Beautiful, simply beautiful child. I wish you comf...Beautiful, simply beautiful child. I wish you comfort, though I know it's not possible now. To torture ourselves with guilt is something we humans do. You did absolutely everything for James that a mother could possibly do.<br /><br />My husband passed away about a week ago, and I began the guilt torture immediately. It's useless. All we can ever do is the best we can do. It's a helpless feeling to not be able to save a loved one. I know things will get better over time, as I lost my son four years ago, but grieving is hard, hard, hard emotionally and physically. I wish we didn't have to do it.<br /><br />Sending you love.Galenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14132369804080588683noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-73111056769011825372012-01-17T16:54:05.622-06:002012-01-17T16:54:05.622-06:00little james is so cutelittle james is so cutemarkohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18070714239454059971noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-29332115689908212532012-01-17T14:45:50.001-06:002012-01-17T14:45:50.001-06:00I love the pictures you posted of James. Everytime...I love the pictures you posted of James. Everytime I see a new one I smile. He was so precious. Thank you for sharing Jim & your story. We're still praying for you! If there's anything I can do, please let me know.The Hill'shttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07662572232839047135noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-53858702310266857162012-01-17T13:58:27.018-06:002012-01-17T13:58:27.018-06:00Kara, I have been following you for a long time n...Kara, I have been following you for a long time now and continue to keep you in my thoughts as you try to piece things back together. I did want to give you one piece of reassurance in regards to this entry. My dad had major brain surgery this summer, and (as a previous commenter mentioned), he had no pain at all! I was shocked, and they did have a prescription filled for him for some pain killers just in case, but he never took them. He was in the hospital for a longer time than James due to some significant complications, but was originally expected to be released after just three days. Even on the first day, as disoriented as he was, he said he had no pain, other than a little at the incision site. So please rest easy on that. In fact, his greatest need was wanting the people he loved close by (which is actually unusual for him) and I know you provided all the love James could possibly have soaked in. Take care....baddiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00855960441197543179noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-43046916724890597842012-01-17T08:00:01.932-06:002012-01-17T08:00:01.932-06:00I'm still praying for you & Matthew (((hug...I'm still praying for you & Matthew (((hugs))).Wendyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13583573341547117530noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-63195932477088668922012-01-17T07:36:57.691-06:002012-01-17T07:36:57.691-06:00I wish there was something I could say to ease you...I wish there was something I could say to ease your pain, but nothing can dull the pain of losing a child. You are in my thoughts and prayers.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-22190207726531992622012-01-17T05:53:20.500-06:002012-01-17T05:53:20.500-06:00He was such a gorgeous boy. I think about James &a...He was such a gorgeous boy. I think about James & you both often & wish there was something that I could do to take the pain away. xAneetshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05545340536847198130noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-59590977368456798142012-01-16T23:31:52.241-06:002012-01-16T23:31:52.241-06:00beautiful pictures...you are in my thoughts and pr...beautiful pictures...you are in my thoughts and prayers all the time. six months is very painful...hang in there.Laurie and companyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08266550221653484734noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-48201051971187775092012-01-16T22:37:56.279-06:002012-01-16T22:37:56.279-06:00What a beautiful boy. I do not typically read blog...What a beautiful boy. I do not typically read blogs but seem to come back to yours to check on you. You make me want to be a better person and a much better parent and have taught me to never take things for granted. Thank you for that and I wish I could change everything for you. I know things happen for a reason but why bad things happen to good people.....well, I do not understand. Much love to you.kristihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13554574662692974643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9155082621754325562.post-8475970979903842782012-01-16T22:20:07.299-06:002012-01-16T22:20:07.299-06:00I love these photos and the brightness in his eyes...I love these photos and the brightness in his eyes. I can't imagine what you are going through, but I think of you and your family often. Please know prayers are being said for you in Ohio.Melissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17566856648938569707noreply@blogger.com